I lost myself

Do you ever creep on yourself on social media?

[someone please say yes so I’m not the only weirdo}

I was creeping on my Instagram the other day (don’t ask why cause I don’t know) and I started looking through photos and captions from 2016 and 2017, and I came to the realization that I kind of lost myself last fall through this spring.

I wasn’t going to come right out and blame working retail, but I think that was the issue. I shared on Instagram back in May that it was my first weekend off from work or travel in more than 7 months. SEVEN MONTHS. my goodness. Now that I’m on the other side I realize that it was slowly sucking the life out of me. And I don’t want you all to think I’m ripping on LOFT, because I’m not. I adore the women I work with.

My point is that retail is a beast. An underpaid beast haha.

I can already tell that I’m feeling more like me. My gym motivation isn’t totally lost, I get to see my friends and make plans for weekends and evenings, I can travel home for holidays and arguably most important – I get a “normal” sleep schedule. No more working at 6 am on Monday, 12pm on Wednesday and 9am on Thursday. My body can stop being confused. (BLESS).

As I was driving back to Grand Rapids on Mother’s Day evening my heart was so happy it could burst. I felt so grateful for the weekend I’d had, and all the people I got to spend time with. It’s amazing what a 3+ hour dinner with some of my favorites ladies and time with my cousins + family can do for me. [Well that and 9 hours of sleep each night haha].

I don’t necessarily have a point for this post, as I’ve been trying to write as my thoughts come instead of forcing anything. I think it’s important to realize there are so many different stages of life. From Spring 2017 – Spring 2018 I busted my butt, convinced I wanted to do a few different jobs instead of sticking myself in an office again after moving back from California. It was a fun year, don’t get me wrong, but I was exhausted. Moving back into office life was something I needed to do, and am lucky that I found a spot for the current stage I’m in. Currently I’m working to find joy in all the things (little + big) because life is moving WAY too fast.

On an outfit note – you all know I love anything lemon, so I’ve linked a few lemon favorites below as well as this dress.

Thanks for continually stopping by!

xo, Maddy